吉恩·瓦伦汀诗11首
Orange peels, burned letters, the car lights shining on the grass,
everything goes somewhere—and everything we do—nothing
ever disappears. But changes. The roar of the sun in photographs.
Inching shorelines. Ice lines. The cells of our skin; our meetings,
A bee careens at the window here; flies out, released: a life
without harm, without shame. That woman, my friend,
circling against her life, a married life; that man, my friend,
solitary, anarchic, driving away from home; them driving, to each
I know, the hard, half-lost, knowing will; the cold first loneliness
again, outside the commonweal, unmoving;
But to say, I know—is there any touch in it?
The words in my dream: “actuarial file.” Actuary, 1. A registrar or
notary, who keeps records of the acts of a court ...
To be there; to listen; not invade. Another solitude ...
I watch her face. The lines of will, kindness, hunger. Silence. She
moves from one thing to another thing in the kitchen, looks out
the window at the other apartment windows ... A woman moves
around, across the courtyard, making supper. How many people is
she making supper for? Now the woman waters the plants. What
is she thinking about. Her head, her arm, look peaceful ...
“Everything that happens, happens once and for all. Is this true?
Yes. Your story; all of your hope; what you do, breaks. Changes.
“If so, what then?” Nothing disappears. And you do last;
The words in the open page of her notebook, I'm so cold. My
Come stay here, at my place, a while.—Someday we will be able
to say, I did this thing; I did that other thing; I was that woman.
Someday, we will be able to take it in, that violence, hold it in our
hands ... And the ones who come after us, maybe they can
understand us; forgive us; as we do forgive our parents, our
grandparents, moving so distantly through their lives ... their
And the ones we were with maybe our friendship can change,
Come stay here. Things change ...
Not to invade Wait, here, in the quiet
with her two-year-old boy in her arms.
Her arms & legs & hands & feet
is holding his glass of bourbon,
he is coming out of the child’s drawing
When does he leave again? When he leaves,
I leave. I like that river the sky.
struck white together half an hour we tear
trusted to me! laugh sore tooth
sucked warm, sweet; sweet wine
dry shrewd turnings of my soul,
sidelong eye ... wings beating
terrible!—your eyes wait, have been waiting,
unknowable, on that sky shore.
如果说《幸福》,《草原》中处在原始状态,愚昧无知的人迷失在了对幸福的寻找中,那么受过良好教育,精神和智力相当发达的知识分子对于幸福有确定的观念吗?他们凭借知识或信仰能够获得真正的幸福吗?
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